you have no idea that it kills me. good thing i don't see you often. and it's been a while since we had a talk. i've been trying too hard to walk away from you. remember the last time we were together? you were holding me as if i was your girlfriend. your caress was all i've been longing for. your scent was delicate enough for my nose that i won't stop breathin' even if i died. but, you made me weak, the weakest of all. i felt a twinge of pain and it almost lasted not until i ever thought of holding another road. this road i took was way out of yours. on my way there, i met so many guys, variety of them. some are assholes, just for fun; some pretended bein nice guys but really wanted was to end up fcuking you unstoppably; some are just committed and just wanted some good fcuk from other bitches around. oh gawd, how i wish infidelity kills right at the moment of spillin' out sperms. anyway, stayin away from you didn't do me any good. i ended up with those terrible guys that had brought me no happiness at all. i admit i had fun, but, still incomplete... i'd rather go back and be with you now, though, i know you'd never love me like i'm lovin' you.